2oo4 has been a fruitful year for me. lots of happenings and all. a year which helped me grow and experience. its really a tough year though, where i cry and laugh. my year has been unlucky, almost completely. i see many things in life which make me understand there are lots of things in this world that money cant buy. relationships.. kinship.. friendship. having such wonderful classmates around with me, and my teachers especially mrs ang, mr koh, ms salinah and ms lee. they gave me a lot of support when im in my defeatist mood. i didnt fare well in my studies, mostly in the first semester. glad that i have my shifus with me, kahheng and longcheng. they taught me with patience. thats how i become what i am now. i remember the days when i cried in class. im not a crybaby though.. im a girl who doesnt cry in school. hah. and i cried in school which made that day unforgettable for me. its when my cousin warded in hospital and i spent most of my week there, taking care of my cousin. the pain was unbearable but i knew what he went through was something we couldnt feel. mrs ang, my four years teacher. she's the one who understands me and sees me grow for these four entire years. i remember i was really quiet on that particular day and she consoled me. her hug made me feel the warmth in her and all. mr koh, without him, i suppose i wouldnt do well in my maths at all. hes a great teacher i could say. always make sure that 100% of the class will pass. and ms lee. in everyone's eyes, she's a strict and fierce teacher. but if you got to understand her more, she's actually a gentle, elegant and nice teacher. yupps. and i love her. as for ms salinah, she's always there to help. and i remember she'll always make sure that im fine. (: reyner, a good classmate of mine, always there listening to my sorrows. sadly, everyone's going to a different school soon. but i hope ten years down the road. we'll still in contact with each other yeah.

besides. what i experience in this year is just problems, problems and problems. im so glad that there are friends with me still. especially lizhen and sherman. a big thank you yah? you are there without fail every step of the way and someone that i can unload my feelings no matter how negative they can be. so i suppose. without you two. hah. i cant imagine what i am now. oh wells.

just hope 2oo5 will be a better year for me, and for you people too yah? (: school startinn. brrooom! and the results. eeeks. its like getting nearer and nearer. bahh. oh yes. talk about yesterday. saw xianzhi on my way to je. and chatted with him in the bus. then met up with my seniors clique again and had dinner at a chinese restaurant. then played pool till about 9pm went to meet zhenguang, jinhong, lianhong, weisiong, jiting and julye. watched MEET THE FOCKERS! yes finally. its hilarious! haas. oh my. i love the baby lots! then um. chatted on the phone with felicia for two hours! mum didnt say anything cause its like 4 years since i last chatted with felicia, my primary school super best friend. =DD chatted till 1.30am or smth. its like never in my life ill talk on the phone till so late. she's going ac )= ahhs adding to my pain. as in. i got rejected you see. and upon hearing that she's going ac too, i feel so urgh. if we got into the same sch, we could still go for recess and all. alrights im dreamin. but its really sad kaes. ahh. anyways. long entry here. its been a long time since i last wrote a long entry aint it. =P happy 2oo5. byebye 2oo4.

oh yes! take note. i've uploaded the pics which i took from overseas/chalet/prom night etc. its under galleria. (: look out for the album title. most on the second page. and yes. my sister coming home today. ahh. im so bored without her )= mwahaha. i received a sms from ms lee too. hahas yeahs i was thrilled upon receiving her msg. (: happy new year!

the beginning of 2oo4 christmas aint a happy one though. but it ended with a kind of satisfaction. (: i saved my pay and brought my family to a chinese restaurant. it was great. sumptuous and delicious =D i wouldnt mind visiting there again k. we enjoyed the meal a lot and i cherished the moments we had. what i really want for christmas is something hard to get. something that is priceless which money cant buy. i wish for relationships; whether its for love, relatives, family and friends. and success in my appeal and also, my O level results. yeahh.. and i do hope things will be different for the year 2oo5. hah. shant talk much about this now.

hmm. another thing which i wanna say to a good friend of mine. not to disclose his name alrights. but i do hope, he'll get over it and start anew. whats love anyway. looking back to the past isnt what you need. theres a future ahead of you. i know to you it'll be endless pain. look at me and see what i am now. i been through the same as you.. i used to think it's just endless pain. but i conquer it all. so i know you can. i trust you.

headed to anglo chinese jc. then appealled for that school. but i brought 2 documents only; short of two. so i need to go back again tmr to hand in the application form though i've appealled online already.

took cab back home. im gonna broke soon. then went jurong west. took passport photo shots. another 9$ spent. and others more. but then. realised im getting lucky. was told i got the lucky draw winner for the dinner and dance 2005 admission. can i consider it as unlucky? i promised junfeng i'll dance just to replace my admission fees and so tyco i won this lucky draw. but luckily hes super nice. instead of dancing ill be the MC. LOL. hm. and the two awards i got for my progress. but theres a saying goes. when you are in luck, theres something you gonna lose. -shrugs. anyways. im off for my teevee now. (:

wells. my trip was okay i guess. didnt have much fun thou, especially fer the last few days. didnt wanna talk much about my trip. i like my stay at sheraton and shangri-la hotel. and the snow there cause it didnt snow fer a day only for my trip. and did a little shopping. bought a lot of things, especially cds cause its super cheap. the price of a CD in SG can buy 5-6 CDs there. and the cute squirrels i met in harbin. AWWW ITS SUPER CUTE! most of all. i missed my daddy most. hes working now and i havent meet him yet.. need to wait fer him back in the evening. ):

oh yes. i got into st. andrews. this is.. no comments. =/ not that i dont like the school. hais. gonna go to that school tmr and have a NICE talk with the principal aye. -shrugs. i hope it'll turn out good. ohmiegawd. i missed my daddy )):

[edit] love my dad lots. and my mum of course. oh wells. dad gave me a big shock. he said i got the good progress award. i couldnt believe my eyes k. cause i got the merit bursary already and i thought it was all over. hahahaa. anyways. congrats selwyn my super buddy for the N level results. =D

my flight to harbin has been brought forward. supposed to leave on sun morn. now its been brought forward to sat night. its midnight flight. hehehes. its good k! i dont have to wake up so early and my parents allowed me to go out in the afternoon! i guess most likely im going bugis. should be able to meet sherm. whees. sherm! i miss you! =P

okay im insane. pardon my insanity. its like prom's been great. fabulous! okay zhen darling came to my house in the evening. then mum helped us on our make-up and all. we were in a rush thou. and theres traffic congestion on our way there too. in the end we were a little late. hah. and yes. tell you what! VINCENT NG (WENG QING HAI) CAME TO OUR PROM NIGHT! yupps hes the mediacorp artiste; our school ex-student. he was shooting fer a film and was late. hahas. and something proud i wanna announce. I TOOK MANY MANY PICS WITH VINCENT NG! okay not only this. I SHARED A SEAT WITH HIM! yes i mean A seat. you bet how thrilled i was. he even placed his arms around me when i took pics with him. how sweet! and the girls were staring at me. AHEHEHEHEE. zhen also took pics with him. hahas. lucky us. but he's poor thing. cant have a proper dinner cause everyone wanna take pic with him. some didnt manage to take a pic with him. ayee so lucky! its like a dream. he's so handsome! more handsome than on tv. and hes really loyal. he's so busy yet he still came and visited the teachers and us. so sweet! muackks! =P marilyn is in lovee. so in love with him!

okay i know if i continue you feel like strangling me. envy me kaes! ;x took many pics with my schoolmates too. and my beloved teachers! (: theres lucky draw too. first prize was a mp3 player. i prefer the second prize. its 150$ taka shopping voucher! theres a total of 50 prizes thou. its a beautiful night. a night to remember. <3

tmr's prom night. my scarf doesnt match my evening gown but its last minute preparation. so cant blame anyway. hah. gonna take many many pics! promised to show some friends of mine. smelly just left ): he went to thailand fer ns training. haiyoos. wanna fetch him back but its on the 18th and by then ill be at harbin still. im gonna miss smelly! he stinks ;X but im touched. its like shawn kor called me yesterday before he left for korea. sherm called me before he left fer brisbane too and smelly! how sweet of them. hahas. i have to call them before i leave fer harbin too. especially kor. he's super worried fer me due to the extreme cold weather there. theres competition going on tmr. yuhua idol. fer goodness. alrights. vote for jinhong kor! hahas. the most handsome guy in our school. (:

i realised how important to have someone close to you. <3

took bus to town and met up with guansoon. so i accompanied him to G2000 and chose clothings fer him. and we walked around, shopped around. saw sheree too! its been ages since i last met her. xP went to nydc to see if jason was there but hes not working today. so yeah. guansoon left in the evening while i walked to OG to wait fer my mum. waited fer like 30mins and received a call from shawn kor. <3 he's leaving fer korea and kor's so sweet to give me a call. smuackks. then mum arrived. so we shopped around and went to have dinner. later went to paragon and bought my prom night's bag. it cost about 62 bucks. oh no.

then we continued shopping. and its like i was in a shop. and there was this guy standing outside the shop. and i walked out and was like staring at him. 'OHHH LIANKHUP!' he was like 'i stood here so long staring at you you now then realised im here'. 'cause its been 2 years since i last met him you see. ;X and mum stared at us. so i chatted with him. and bid goodbye. so we headed to the nearby shop. told my mum about liankhup. and she likes him. =/ guess what. mum even said 'tackle him!'. =\ fer goodness. is that my mum.? -close eyes- then she reminded me to get his no. so luckily hes still there. wells. reached home before eleven. managed to watch sgi finals. taufik! haha. then liankhup smsed me. he wanted to get my no. too but scared of my mum. and my mum said, 'OH GOSH. tell him im very understanding one'. lols. and fer goodness sake k. i think tmr im meeting him. he said i could ask my mum come along too. LOL. i think if mum going, they'll gang up together alr. ;x hahas. its so funny man. pretty eventful day i suppose. mwahhahhaaa.